lost
Im just so lost... i feel like im in a dream.... idk... i either failed my calc test or just barely passed because the teacher is great about partial credit. either way i failed. Im sick of people saying things are good enough, or that i knew i wouldnt be perfect so what difference does it make. Mediocrity sucks. it is nowhere good enough for me. that aside, the only reason i am in school i sto go to med school. I am disabled. i do not *need* to work ever again im my life. I am choosing to becuase i want to help people and I want to work in medicine. There is nothing else i want to do in my life with the only exception of theatre. I am busting my ass to get good enough grades to do what i want in life. im so frustrated....

in a side note.... john hopkins accepts 30 students a year. theyre avg gpa is a 3.89. I guess i can cross them off the list. Tufts accepts 180 out of 7000 that apply and 800 that interview. umass avg gpa 3.6. thats the absolute lowest for med schools. idk... im freaking out. i need summer to start...